So after all the anticipation of the first day of my treatments, I let the bottom fall out yesterday. I wasn't feeling very well physically, and then it occurred to me that this really was just the beginning. Not even mile one in marathon terms!
I allowed myself some tears, but then that old self talk kicked back in, reminding me that I am young, strong, courageous and have so much yet to do in this life.There are countries to see, mountains to climb, and most of all health care to FIX!
It certainly helps that hardly an hour passes without hearing from one of my friends or family members. It's like this whole brigade standing with me making sure when my knees buckle there's someone there to prop me back up and give me a little shove in the back. You know who you are! And you will never know just how much your relentless support of me has made the difference between this journey being impossible and bearable - and yes, even more than bearable because I am learning so very much! About myself, about the disease and how to live going forward, about what and who are important.
Aristotle said, "You will never do anything in this world without courage. It is the greatest quality of the mind next to honor." I am bound and determined not to be defined by Cancer, but rather my courage!
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